Going Back to Where It All Began

Every summer for the last 35 years, Steve and his family have been going “up north” to Boy Lake for a week of fishing and relaxing. They have never, ever missed a year.

Timber Trails is a beautiful resort: comfortable cabins, beautiful hiking trails, gorgeous sunsets over the lake. We look forward to the call of loons, the soaring eagles, and great fishing. It’s a week to wind down and regroup. It’s a week to enjoy!

And last year was no different. Steve and I spent hours in our fishing boat talking about how we would take our daughter fishing! (At our last ultrasound, they told us we were having a little girl – oops!)

Except last year, I left in a helicopter.


Now, I’m busy packing for vacation this year. We’re going to the same resort. We’re staying in the same cabin.

While most of me is really excited, I’m also anxious because this will be the first week long vacation with Jax. I’m scared because I’m not sure how it will all hit me once we get up there. I’m sad because we almost didn’t get to go back (if Jax’s story wasn’t a happy one, I don’t think I would have ever been able to go back.) I’m guilty because maybe I should have known that I was in labor. So many emotions – I’m a wreck!

Not a second of a day goes by that I am not thankful that Jax is growing and happy and mostly healthy.

But, I also have to give myself the chance to recognize just how lucky we really were. How lucky we are. And to do that, I need to think about where it all began…

The day before Jax was born.
Last year on Boy Lake the day before Jax was born.

Author: Andrea M

Oh man, what an adventure! I went into labor unexpectedly when I was 23w3d pregnant. Jaxson was born weighing 1 lb 8 oz. A tiny little peanut, but boy was he feisty. He still is! We love it now, but we probably won't when he is a teenager. I write about our journey and all other things that come with it, including a brain tumor. We look forward to "meeting" you - come hang out with us...we're pretty cool.

5 thoughts on “Going Back to Where It All Began”

  1. Oh Andrea, I think everyone will agree with me, that Baby Jax couldn’t have been born into a better family than yours. The World will be a better place because of what you now know and your ability to communicate. Thank God for each of you!


  2. You and Steve have been on quite a journey. We do appreciate you sharing it with us. You have a talent for reflection and writing. Who knows, maybe you could write a book someday that would benefit lots of parents in your situation?! (and give you $$$ to stay home with Jax longer?) 🙂
    I can only imagine the feelings that are resurfacing but you are facing them head on with bravery like you have from the beginning. We know your life is not easy right now, but we celebrate the blessing and the happy ending too!! Happy vacation and catch lots of fish!!!


    1. Thank you, Janelle! Your words mean alot to me. Who knows…maybe I will look into writing that book! Too many people have mentioned it for me to ignore! 🙂 Boy Lake was fun, but it was also very strange. We stopped by the Crosby hospital to say thanks to our nurse and doctor – that was awesome!


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